A NIght of Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Tired,
Happy,
Excited,
Nearly dying before,
Nearly laughing a whle ago,
But it was more of a sadness,
Than this reality I've been dreaming of,
I would rather call it frustration,
or just really goddam tired of what had just happened.
Damn, how could he be so nice, so loving, so childish!
It's all folded into one, I hate wha's happening now.

Nocturnal stray 

Beetles strumming in my ears,
the night slept deeper than me,
I wanted to get up last night,
sip Milo from an empty cup,
but my eyes won't allow me to,
my disturbed mind was fully awake,
my unkind feet moving in some directions,
yet never allowed me to go anywhere,
I knew I must go, I was just too bewildered.
Or I would rather call it fears.

Damn! I was lost in my path again,I wonder why.