Wanderer of Wonders

If you could sing some lullabyes for me during night and day, and then catch me when I need your arms the most; then perhaps I could visit your dreams till like eternity. Just so i can smell your presence, and please say you'd let me to.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Bliss of Love

Holding your hand,

Walking slowly beside you,

Exchanging stories of our yesteryears,

Learning theories,

Our personal accounts,

Our personal views

Our personal feelings,

Watching as the sun hides to give way for darkness

 

Are more orgasmic than anything in this world,

But to you,

Why these seem to be more taboo than sex?


Someday, someone will give you all the things that you have already given to someone else. And it won't matter if you love him or not, what will only matter is that he appreciates you and ready to love you.
Joanna Mikka Liwag : sabi ni kuya, tatlong bagay lang ang kelngan nya para makasurvive dito sa tokyo: (1)internet, (2) aircon? at (3) ang kaalaman na may isang taong nagmamahal sa kanya...

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Broken Dream

I only wanted you to hold me and tell me that you have really loved me.  Then, I can let you go.  Not this way.  Not when after making myself stupid for believing that it could happen and that it could be true.  Dreams, undeniably, are subversive.

I have loved you, and there had never been somebody else the way I have felt for you, but you wouldn't know about this.  NO way would you know about this; because you're now leaving me, and I shall leave you too.


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

One not fine day, in response to my Yahoo! Messenger status "Don't believe in dreams and fantasies, these are subversive."


Rizza Estadola: no i disagree, the subconscious mind is more powerful than the conscious mind
Rizza Estadola: hahaha
LIZT: I agree naman, subconscious is really more powerful, but it can bring us to destruction
Rizza Estadola: ah syempre dapat may wisdom eheheh
LIZT: the subconscious mind tends to over do something that the conscious cannot
Rizza Estadola: pero dapat i balance din sya ng conscious mind kase yun yung goal of education di ba
LIZT: korek hehe
Rizza Estadola: aba bakit seryoso ang shout out mo?
LIZT: OA kaseh ang subconscious minsan!
LIZT: dahil seryoso ng konti ang buhay ko ngayon
Rizza Estadola: pero it's where the impossible things happen
Rizza Estadola: ahahah! really?
LIZT: kaya nga, the IMPOSSIBLE!
Rizza Estadola: siguro overworked ka na lizet
Rizza Estadola: relax hehe
LIZT: and it frustrates us somehow kaseh nga it's impossible and yet we're always hoping that it could be true
LIZT: hehe
Rizza Estadola: lizet, sabi nga nga sa isang preaching na nabasa ko: every good things is worth waiting for; every victory wil take time
Rizza Estadola: every good thing that you really really wish is worth the fight
LIZT: Ayokong ifollow yan
Rizza Estadola: why?
LIZT: pano na ung impossibilities? Would u still wait for something impossible to happen?
Rizza Estadola: yes, the other word for that is faith
Rizza Estadola: you only have one life, would you regret really having what you want kung waiting time lang naman ang requirement?
Rizza Estadola: waiting is a form of fight
LIZT: would u continue hoping for something to happen and spend ur whole life for it to happen while u can start to enjoy life once you've forgotten about it and accept the fact that some things are made not for real
Rizza Estadola: it's a matter of personal choice. but if you think that the temporal or second best happiness that you like doesn't really make you happy, then by all means go fight for the gold!
LIZT: Gold is the price that we've all wanted, but Gold is always limited
Rizza Estadola: yes, the price is high, but the thrill is all really worth it
LIZT: and the terror along with it
Rizza Estadola: yes, it's like war, may casualty
Rizza Estadola: but would you want to forever stay in the harbor than go out in the open sea and explore?
LIZT: if that would mean I can avoid the casualties and settle for anything that could make me satisfy, I would stay
Rizza Estadola: oh i see
Rizza Estadola: sayang naman
LIZT: but at least I can save myself from being one of the casualties
Rizza Estadola: you still never know
Rizza Estadola: giving up the fight early on means you're already a casualty
LIZT: If I can see that I am not capable of winning, the next best thing is to give up.
Rizza Estadola: because you don't have faith in yourself that's why early on, you already quit
Rizza Estadola: if you don't have faith in yourself kasi, you don't just defeat yourself forever, but you also affect hte people around you by thinking that they can't make it too
Rizza Estadola: but if you will believe in the power within you, you never know how powerful you could be
Rizza Estadola: fear is like a ghost, it paralyzes you when in fact it doesn't really exist
Rizza Estadola: the world is full of people with fears. that's why people seldom fight
Rizza Estadola: no wonder there's so much hopelessness, fear, poverty, etc etc....
LIZT: Riz, you're too full of wisdom, pd ka na mag-asawa
LIZT:
Rizza Estadola: feeling ko minsan adik adik lang
Rizza Estadola:
LIZT:
Rizza Estadola: gusto ko na nga eh, i'm having a lot of battles myself
Rizza Estadola: but you just have to identify the lies kasi, because most people don't believe in themselvees
LIZT: hayzt, ang ending, feeling ko tama ka pero feeling ko tama din ako kaya walang mali. And yes, there's so much fears in me.
Rizza Estadola:
Rizza Estadola: it's ok lizet, it's ok. pero you know what, si God lang naman kasi ang pwedeng maging superman ng buhay natin kasi di rin natin kaya i korek ang sarili natin. masyadong malakas ang feat at iba pang feelings at enemies para kalabanin natin. it's only God who can give us weapons to fight like faith, love, protection, etc.
Rizza Estadola: we can always pray, like be ourselves and talk to God. you'll see what happens kasi He will show you
Rizza Estadola:
Last message received on 9/23 at 8:46 AM

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Are you just going to let me go?  Kahit nakakapit pa ako, nakabitiw ka na agad....