Joan Pauline Talubo: ang tindi ng status message mo
Joan Pauline Talubo: hehe
Joan Pauline Talubo: inlababo
Joan Pauline Talubo: hahaha
LIZT: haha. mahaba yan
LIZT: unrequitted
Joan Pauline Talubo: ok lang yun
Joan Pauline Talubo: sabi nga sa isang text dati
Joan Pauline Talubo: isang araw, darating yung tao na magbibigay ng lahat nang naibigay mo na
Joan Pauline Talubo::) 
LIZT: pano pagdumating un? 
Joan Pauline Talubo: pag dumating eh d hindi na unrequited
Joan Pauline Talubo::) 
LIZT: honga hayzt.

It's all because I'm in love with you.

I slept thinking about you, woke up loving you. It's all coming back to me now, and it's hurting me much I can't contain it....

Love is the sweetest of all the chocolates, candies, and fruits; until it totally drains ur mouth, ur brain, and it kills you, tears u apart.

I don't understand love, and I don't understand people who fall for that.  I don't understand why that small little thing that knocks in your brain can wash away all the miseries and pains, and yet, can give these back to you when the sweetness is all gone.

...and I don't understand myself why I have been a prey for this monster called love.  I have continued loving you, but I can't contain it now, I have to go, I have to leave....

Just be There

I am a willing victim of claustrophobia
    Barely breathing
    Barely moving
The door has not opened yet.

I am fascinated by the physical pains
    Injured
    Fractured
For a moment, I can forget this emotion you’ve broken.
    
I am laughing because I am crying.
This can never be more painful
Than seeing myself devoid of pure emotions.
Than thinking that you no longer exist here.

So I would cry, I would laugh, I would smile
Because in the midst of all these,
I know I can find you
    Hurting me
Torturing me
Killing me sweetly 
And softly.
But at least you’re there.
At least I can hope
    That you’re really THERE.
    
I tried to watch the birds fly freely in the sky. I tried to capture the air in my hands. I tried to run till I got myself to nowhere.

I tried to breath deeply to utter the words I have long ago forgotten, but this small voice controls me, the little sanity that has never left me, but disturbs me so badly. I could have said it long time ago, I could have enjoyed that moment and let myself go freely. But I can never forgive myself for whatever will happen next, I know I will only find myself back to isolation. 

Time has never been too harsh, time has never been this long, to give me such long time agony. I will forget you, but I would have to keep my fingers crossed to beg the time that it may come when I can still hold on to this sanity I barely have.