Wanderer of Wonders

If you could sing some lullabyes for me during night and day, and then catch me when I need your arms the most; then perhaps I could visit your dreams till like eternity. Just so i can smell your presence, and please say you'd let me to.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Darn the Weather!!!! I love it!

Exhale! Inhale!
It's the freshest breeze of the morning glory
walking around the campus, makes my feet tired,
brings my mind to all those forgotten memories.
I have lost my name, I have lost myself.
I will try to deny it, I am a pretender.

Jump! Jog!
The trees are dancing, the sun is hiding.
I was free as a bird last night, now I'm back to rusty cage.
Help me reminisce what I have learned yesterday.
Torture my brain, the last thing i want now is to run it.
Help me be free again, help me forget about you.

Leave it!
I am neither good in caring nor loving.
I'll never try, if that's what you're so afraid of.
Leave me now, I'm used to solitude.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Mommy koooo

wahehe. I'm supposed to be hurrying for my laboratory class, but I couldn't help but blog this one episode today! Ate txted me if I wanted to go with them to Manila, I asked her where, oh well, to cut everything, MOM'S COMING!!!! Tomorrow na!


Huhu, I can't go with them to fetch her from the airport, and I have xmas party in our dorm, and I have this PhD subject (damn, damn, damn, always in the way!!!) so I can only see her tomorrow night. Hola, I'm excited! 'been 3 years na, missed her, super super!!!!

I wanna share this secret: I sleep and wake up in her arms everytime she comes home, and I feel too sorry for myself now that I'm staying in the dorm, so I can only spend few nights with her, huhu....buti na lang xmas break! Such a baby! yep, yep, I am. And I also hug and kiss her everyday, especially while she's cooking....sarap ng me nanay! Sweet po ako noh, akala nyo wala sa buto ko un, sweet ako kahit sa friends!

Hayzzz, I'm excited! See yah again bloggie!
I'm doing better tonight.

I feel so overwhelmed now, I have finally gotten over with all the dramas of the past few days. Funny how I can easily manipulate my emotion, sometimes I really don't feel too real. It's like I'm living with a certain degree of virtual management. It's like I'm holding a remote control in my hand, and I can just easily change any channels in my life that I don't feel should be my focus. You see, I'm living in this world of too much freedom, where I can be in love today, and then leave this topic the next day. Where I can be so happy today while I was so sad yesterday. Damn, I'm dressing my strayed life into a perfect one.

Tomorrow will be a jam packed day! I haven't felt too cramming yet, but I have some fears now, I hope I can pass again this time. I got really good grades last sem, I worked hard for that ( chrissss, I am now a laude candidate in UP if I were in undergrad!!!! saya!!! I should have studied talaga during my college). This sem, I am not too confident, I have been making moronotic activities as of last week. I don't have the theoretical basic but I know the practicality. Damn, I'm not being bobo na again. Anyway, tomorrow will really be hectic but I'm excited for our first class, the 201 peepz will be there. wahooo....I've missed u guys.

So much for that, will post before xmas, lots and lots of stories. Will also tell stories about going back to boondocks....and the 2 friends who are getting married na, wahhhh....no, wahhh is not because they are marrying, but it's because one's asking me to be the bridesmaid, batukan ko kaya un!? Ninang, pd pa, hehe.

Nytie, bloggie. We have drinking session na, nagpuslit ako ng redhorse at san mig light sa guard, hehe, di nahalata....baet naman sakin si mamang guard eh!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Chrissake!
I feel too goddam scared today, dunno why. Oh well, maybe it's not fears, nor has any tiny relation with fears. I'm mad, I'm hurt, I'm sad, I'm bewildered, I'm excited, I'm enjoying, and one is not supposed to feel all these emotions. Am I now disobeying the Law of Psychology? Can anyone really feel all these at the same time? Maybe there's just one term about this, and I will never admit the truth, nor will ever come near the realization of it.

Sheezz. Am I? No, it's just the dilemma of this PhD course I mistakenly registered. Goddam UP!

I'm not fed up. Anyone there talk to me, please.