Chrissake!
I feel too goddam scared today, dunno why. Oh well, maybe it's not fears, nor has any tiny relation with fears. I'm mad, I'm hurt, I'm sad, I'm bewildered, I'm excited, I'm enjoying, and one is not supposed to feel all these emotions. Am I now disobeying the Law of Psychology? Can anyone really feel all these at the same time? Maybe there's just one term about this, and I will never admit the truth, nor will ever come near the realization of it.

Sheezz. Am I? No, it's just the dilemma of this PhD course I mistakenly registered. Goddam UP!

I'm not fed up. Anyone there talk to me, please.