Tired as usual

I'm so tired today, not because I've had so much work to do from the Church, I just got so tired from this damn world enveloping my wholeness. I'm in deeper melancholia again, there were nights that i'd stay awake just because I fear everything.
Damn, I can't stop my mind from running again, I don't really wanna think of anything these days, I feel too drained, and I feel too tired. When my mind runs, my pulse vibrates wilder and I can't stop everything then. I can't stop crying, I can't stop hoping and dreaming for those impossible things to happen, I can't stop loving without really anyone to love with.
Damn, I hate thinking,somebody pls take this brain off my head!